Not too long ago the words "settling down" or "settling in" used to give me butterflies in my stomach. No part of me wanted to settle down anywhere. I was ready to SEE THE WORLD, embrace new things, meet new people and impact new cultures. Even though I have basically been doing those things since I graduated from High School still no part of me wanted to stop.
Let me first just explain to you this, I TOOK SO MUCH PRIDE in the fact that I owned so little. Anytime I wanted to move I could do so easily by packing my little car full and hitting the road. I loved it! So far I lived in all furnished places so I never had any need of buying any furniture. Well, the last apartment I lived in the whole thing was furnished except the fact I needed to buy a bed. Can I just tell you, as I was driving away from the mattress store with the new mattress in the back of my friend's truck. I suddenly realize..."Oh my sweet Lord... I now own a mattress. I can no longer just pack everything I own in my car. I'm stuck!" You might think I am crazy but I am being totally for real right now. Well I later verbalized my thought and my friend pretty much told me I was retarded and that it was just a cheap mattress if I wanted to leave without it was no big deal. That helped and so I continued with my feeling of freedom and with no obligation.
Slowly over the last year I could literally feel God start changing my heart and giving me a desire to "Settle down." Even then at times "AHHHH!" would pass through my thoughts. For whatever reason settling down was a scary idea to me. However, I can officially say with complete honesty I want to "Settle in!" It's crazy I know.
In march I will be looking for a house to rent in Arkansas. I even went and looked at furniture today and had no feelings of freaking out but just of excitement. Also, in January I start the Pre-Med program. YES that means I'm gonna be a doctor!! :-D The only thing that's between me and being a doctor is just a tad bit of school ha. Ok maybe a little more than a tad... 7 years of school to be exact. 3 years for Pre-Med and 4 years for Medical School. This might sound insane since I haven't spent more than 2 years in any place within my adult life let alone spend 7 just in school. I'm so ready for it though! It's so weird but I am so happy and excited that I will be right here for a LONG time. I will be specializing in Emergency Medicine so that I'm able to do medical clinics/disaster relief stateside and overseas. And yes, though I probably will keep my HOME here in Arkansas, after school is over I'll definitely be getting my travel on. I always believed there was a reason I like going new places... perhaps because that's what I'm made for. However, I've learned that to successfully travel and make an impact in the world a strong foundation and a solid home base is crucial. ;-)
Well I could go on about how excited I am about my new days coming up but I don't want to bore you. Have a nice night!
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